The Lottery

It has been over 24 years since I lost my first friend to what was then an unknown disease. I have posted this item before on World AIDS Day and sadly it bears repeating, perhaps more so given the dreadful statistics coming out of South African this past week.

I first read this post on EVERYTHING IS NOT REAL, a blog that has been sadly discontinued. Christopher could write frivolous, naughty, nasty, informative and touching. His entry for World AIDS Day three years ago moved me immensely. As I know I could not write anything as appropriate to the day I am taking the liberty of once again reproducing it.

December 1, 2005

I have lottery fantasies.

I dream about being able to buy fast cars and designer clothes until they come out of my ears. I want houses in London, New York, East Hampton and Rio. I want to be able to travel first class and work out at The Third Space and get reservations at Annabel’s just because of who I am. I want to be able to take hot dates on tours of the National Gallery. When it’s closed. Because I’m one of it’s biggest benefactors.

Needless to say, twice a week, I am disappointed.

This morning, on the way to work on the tube, I was reading a Times article, written by Annie Lennox, about the millions and millions of people in Africa who are suffering with HIV and AIDS, and dying, and how the governments of the richer nations, such as the one I live in, have pledged support over an eight year period. And how they absolutely must stay committed to this goal.

One of the kids she spoke to on a recent trip to Africa was dying of AIDS. But before he got sick he lost his mother, father, brothers, sisters and pretty much everyone else he cared about to the same disease. He was totally alone in the world. With no hope. And certainly no dreams of fast cars or a nice comfortable house, anywhere. And that shit isn’t even near the important stuff.

There are approximately 6,450,000,000 humans on Earth.

Most of them are not 33 year olds who have careers which afford them access to guest lists to the best clubs and bars the city has to offer. They don’t have friends who will stick with them no matter what (and slip them Jil Sander dress shirts every now and then.)They don’t have housemates who have Thai cuisine prepared and ready to eat when they arrive home. They don’t have comfortable beds to sleep in at night.

6,450,000,000.

When I think about it I kinda did win the lottery.

About 33 years ago

EVERYTHING IS NOT REAL – Christopher


For Pierre, Lawrence, Bill, Jim, Andrew and Don.

01 dicembre – World AIDS Day

Author: Willym

A senior with the heart of a young'un

5 thoughts on “The Lottery”

  1. Thank you Wills! That was a beautiful reminder to know gratitude. Something I needed a dose of today. Haven’t been by in awhile, and must say I love the look of your blog! Thank you for your Thanksgiving e-card, and I hope you had a great weekend as well.

  2. That is beautiful. I really wish the USA would spend more money on this issue..maybe we will now that we are getting rid of the dummy.

  3. Thanks for posting this again. I remember reading it last year and being moved to write about my friend Micah. I think about them all so often, those beautiful boys who’ve left us. The world is greyer and colder without them.

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